WTF...T... Book 48..

I really do try to be nice and kind, I try to make others smile. It feels better when you smile, when it's a real smile and a real reason to smile. I've felt invisible my entire life and I will always try to help others be seen and heard.  Today sucked. About 7am I went into the freezer with one of my girls. I lifted a 12 ft ladder forward so she could get an ice pack and I put it back. I didn't lift it off the ground if that makes since, just straightened it up and leaned it back. Well as we left.. and almost got to the door.. it fell. Crashed into my the top hit my head and the rest my back and shoulder. I stayed all day til like 2:15. I drove by the house with a little video for my mom and intended to go home, shower and lay down until I needed to pick up T but I called Mom and well then we talked for an hour. The day went from there.  On my way home I talked to a friend from Lafayette and went to my future house to pick up the contract.  I'm sore AF but ...

It's this Beautiful human is 10 today!! How can she be 10!!  she was just 1!! I wish you the most wonderful day.. life Iris!! Aunt Tina loves you!  I shared my day with my beautiful niece and she deserves to be first!  My day started at 5am at work.... if been awake since 3am cause well the brain started .. I refused to get up until 420am lol. But I got up and got coffee and punched in at 4:59am.  It was... A morning. Extremely active but we got it done. But it didn't stop. At 11am.. I walked into my bosses office and said "I've been going for 6 hours, can we do my review so I can sit down a bit" haha.  5 min later I was being read the most amazing comments. I was "A breath of fresh air that they needed". I've never had a review so positive,there was literally no negative and I'm still so shocked but proud! So then I asked about where to find my current rate, explained that I was looking to rent a house and rea...

Why was I dating the pictures too?? Shrug Short but sweet.  Dragged my ass up and got to work, definitely should have been in at 5.  Went in and straight loaded the ovens! Meat sauce in and going... Well .. I had it preheated and the two racks had only been in 10 min max. But I literally thought it was the 30!!! WTF T!!! Man ... Literally shot the day.  It was a literal shit show but for some reason I was in decent spirits. It will adjust and it will be better. But man!  I will be in at 5 tomorrow! I'm doing this quickly so I can just finish up get in bed and crash by 8:30/9 if I'm disciplined lol Got gas, mailed Iris's Birthday card and got T. Man... I really do enjoy our conversations.. I do hope I can actually help him.. he listens and he's aware and he wants help. All I can do is be a safe space and friend and I am.  Lindsey's Mom is gone for 3 wks and I was able to get my car in Friday and borrow her car! I'm waiting to hear about the house and ...

Today man.really was jot sure where it was going. Yesterday was just not a good day and I was questioning a few things and when I woke up I really wasn't sure where I was emotionally I guess. I made coffee and just walked & baked peacefully.  It's actually been a minute since I enjoyed a cup of coffee in the morning. A was downstairs about 15 min or so later. I'd decided I was going to do laundry and get Popeyes afterwards.  I worked on some classes and the house people texted to verify I was only at work for 3 months and want to verify my income. After some texting I was heading to see the house after I finished laundry.  I was worried, truly but I also wanted the house. It's the cutest thing! It has a finished basement and the kitchen is the smallest part of the house but I can absolutely deal with it. I want it. The business ready now, wife and I agreed to let me get my W-2 and stubs to verify that I can afford it.  I'm prepared to be broke and I ...