Ch.1 January, pg. 1

See ... THIS.. is how I get mad and frustrated. I already did this, infact I was adding my last image and sentence and suddenly I'm gone and nothing I did is here or saved. Seriously W...T...F!!!!! Like I don't even want to start all over again... F@*$!!!!!!!
Seriously.. I'm fucking pissy right now. 

I walked away and I'm still just stupid fucking annoyed... >__< ... the best I can do to explain my annoyance. 

I woke up earlier than I wanted too, I even tried to self pleasure myself awake or more like back to sleep and when that failed I simply got up(see.. now I'm in a different headspace and feel crass and uncaring.. far from my slightly ambitious post I had ready to post).
I made a delicious plate of pancakes yesterday which lead to the craving for oatmeal so I stuck with my plan. A cup of delicious coffee and a big bowl of Caramel Apple Pecan Oatmeal. A delicious bowl of unhealthiness and I enjoyed every indulgent bite. 
I continued to be productive and did dishes and cleaned up the kitchen and back upstairs I went. I'd decided today wasn't going to require a ton of effort but things still were planned. 
It's 01/01/24 and so that meant I would go through my jar of happy/feel good things/peoples/events from the year.
The latest date I have in the jar is 05/02/23 and it involved M. I'm not sure if that is significant but I stopped all things for a while, I definitely back peddled my hard work during that time I spent with him and I have no intentions of back peddling again. 
There were even a couple involving R and I still appreciate them. I need to see that at the time they obviously meant something to me and I cannot dismiss that. They happened and that's all I need to say at the moment haha. 
A pile of feel good right here. People, places, experiences,and reading many made me smile all over again. 
My 2024 jar is ready to fill with the goal to continue further than May. 
I ate like a child, for both lunch and dinner, and I'm not mad about it at all. 
Food will be something I need to get back under control, I'm very aware but definitely not taking any control of it at all. 
Instead of starting day 1 with why I'm doing this, you got the example of why. I'd realized it could be interesting to track my many W.T.F moments because they exist in multitude, some definitely all my doing but a good half just really make you wonder wtf.. 
I also had planned several adorable or cute selfies so I had a cute one to post, as I'll include one a day as well, but alas I also napped like a child and lost that momentum I had when I planned this post. 
So you get my tired eyes and wrinkles, and again I'm not mad about it. It's me. 

So here's Pg.1 of Ch. 1 of Book 48 of Me. I'm still annoyed because my first one was better grrr.... 

~~T~~

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