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I wanted to send this to some dude on IG because he was having a depression issue. It was odd because that was never who I was. I was always him. Instead of just sending it though I remembered how much I hated when people tried to be optimistic and tell me a bunch of crap. Now I know it's different and it's all said under different pretenses. Some truly live that way, with rainbows and butterflies in their minds 24/7. Not worried, with a psyche that works like everyone expects. They don't understand how others think differently. I never expected to be like those people, at least in the aspect of wanting others to not feel the heaviness and pain of depression because I understand it. He appreciated the offer but declined the meme. That's fine.. because I understood and I probably sounded like one of those other people when actually I just wanted him to know that I do understand because I'd been there. I really never thought I would be as I am now because I spent so much time there. 

It was a comfy day. I had things to do. And do I did. Two different shark socks because.. the matching ones are Mia and we always need a little sparkle. What you don't see is Friday the 13th leggings and a Feelin Evil sweat shirt and my Sick Bitch beanie. It was just the comfy mood but definitely had an attitude. 
I avoided one person and yet ended up seeing another at 1am and I'm absolutely not mad about it. 
it was laundry day... So that got done and all put away. I'm apparently already missing one of my scream socks so I'll be looking for that tomorrow.
It was a groovy day.. not really stressful but chill and productive.
This also happened. I've really needed a computer for a while but I just couldn't. Well, My Mommy let me put one on her card as long as I make the payments. I've never had a new computer. Always hand me downs. I bought ExH2 one in fact but never for me. ExH1 would build me mine out of his excess parts, never just a new one. I could have done much more if I had had one two weeks ago for work. So I'm super ready to check it out and get set up. 
I considered taking a quick selfie but... You have pieces and don't always need all of me. 

~ T ~

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