Pg.19 of 366

Man... It's late. And my night is just.. man my life is a trip sometimes. 
As I sit here at 10:18pm eating Dunkin Munchkins secretly in my room... I just think about the last lets say hour and a half. T convinced me to get him something to drink and sent me cash. I was a bit annoyed when I left and when he got in the car he was definitely not sober haha. I drove around while he talked, he's become comfortable enough to speak openly and I'm glad, honestly we're both comfortable. There's no judgement in my car, conversations are very honest. He needs the safe space and I will have it available. 
That said.. the conversation is extremely enjoyable and even if I'm annoyed on my way I always end up in a better mood. We just have good conversation. His trauma is.. legit to say the least and I will not give up on him. I will at least be a safe space and a great friend. 
Thinking about that is why I chose today's image. I feel guilty about all of those and the amount of I'm sorries that come out of his mouth remind me of me and if I can help someone young heal a little bit and save them some pain later in life I am going to. 
We are in the middle of a snow storm and it's lake effect...
Hence my annoyance that I couldn't just say no lol. You can't really see it but it was white out conditions for a while. Lindsey picked me up and we went to a a Japanese restaurant literally down the street. 
Zing... Hot tea was necessary today.. as well as Gyoza with Maraschino cherries..
it was a delicious dinner and I was starving didn't take pictures lol. I was glad it was so close. I was home by 730.. and leaving g the house again about 8:30 lol. 
i was warm and still cute AF... It was a good day ultimately. I absolutely fucked some shit up at work but I handled a lot of shit too. 
I'm so ready for bed hahaha!

~ T ~ 

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