Ch. 2 Pg. 51-56

I really did not want to do more than two days in a post but really this week has just been exhausting. In fact I'm sitting at the Laundromat and literally everything has pissed me off from the moment I left the house. Everything. I should go to Alicia's after here but I'm absolutely unsure if I want to. 

i took this just now yo infact signify I am... Grumpy as fuck. 

I have an insane amount to do. But let's not go there yet! I'm gonna break these days into sub chapters of a sort lol. It's the best way I think to semi keep myself on focus.. I've absolutely skipped all my meds the last week and there are some ready to pick up that I just do tomorrow. ANYWAY... 

Pg. 51...

Tuesday man. Get to work and my cook is not well. It was a heavy day and I'd gotten meatballs in the oven and she set off for the first batch of egg noodles. 212° steam only 6 min. We had only enough pans to do the first 20 pans and then had to rotate to get the others done in order to get everything out. I'd already told her she was going to need to go home, she is sick and might need urgent care the way she sounded. 

6 minutes comes and she comes out with the first rack and says I don't understand but they're all mush. We just stared. Easily 100 pounds of noodles, absolutely destroyed. While they dumped I set out to find more noodles. Wed used 21 cases.. well there were only two in the warehouse so I took them and what rotini they had. At this point they're dumping and I had to deal with the meatballs so we didn't lose them too. Just after 7 My bosses high come in and I stop them and explain the situation. Jill leaves and comes back in record time. She decides the kettle is the better option at this point. And just starts dumping pans into boiling water. Every pan was scaled based on weight for each school, we didn't do by pan to be more accurate which was what we'd started doing. Now they want pan numbers so I broke them down by 2lb pans to get a number but no one was measuring anything. Just dumping noodles in pans and going. I was so frustrated and I just wanted to cry. I've yet to feel that way there but man. The driverseft Kate and with what they could take, we then had several others drive in whatever bags we had to keep things warm and to temp. We sent the last noodles out about 10:45am. It was an absolute nightmare. 

The entire day felt that way, a complete nightmare. I was already exhausted from not really stopping from the week before and I really was hoping for an easy Tues. Ohhh Jill also sent Rose home and she ended up out until Thursday because she had strep, so we were worried about that too lol. 

I left work at like 3 and I did a quick stop at the house to record a walk through for everyone. Then it was run around to deal with T. Man.. he's frustrating AF and I let him be that way because that dick hits when I get it and generally wed have great conversations but it's really weighing on me lately. 

It was like 5:30 when I got home and I just snapped lol. Alicia and I smoked and I vented, I just needed the day out. I was in bed early because I needed to be in at 5am. I did not sleep. It was fucking horrible, but the day was freaking over at least! 

Day 52.. I had to be in early, 5am, because I needed to get coffee cake baked for a catering. I was also going to need to get in the production since my cook had strep. It was Chili which was rather simple and I'd had everything collected and ready to go. Beans were all we were going to wait on and that just meant the chili would simmer longer. I'd asked to have onions and peppers done for the chilli I needed to make and well shed planned on doing it this morning. I did not have time to wait so I started that process. The catering went and I had the chili started, meat crumbles in to brown, onions and peppers going. I was trying to do paperwork in between because I should have had inventory but with everything going in in just so far behind. Once we were a little ahead Doreen was able to step in and finish the chili process up while I tried to get things printed. At this point I'm like where is the high schools menu? It never made it in and so the product for it never got ordered. I now have to manually add everything needed for the full menu every day by hand, because I was obviously not already behind. They shift inventory by a day so that was helpful. I got two days done and left at 2. 9 hrs was fine with me this week, I'm moving and I wanted to be doing things I needed to do. I left and went to dollar tree, I was getting cleaning supplies because I needed to clean. After the house in Camden I was terrified to feel dirty all the time because it didn't get properly cleaned. I walked in and boom, planters... So I also got new plant pots hahaha. I ran to the house and I cleaned the 3 rooms. It wasnt too difficult and I just didn't want to deal with the bathroom or kitchen yet. Also fuck cleaning a bathroom after men let alone a man you don't know. It was then off to deal with T shit. I'd asked him to help me empty storage and agreed... Fuck that was a mistake.. seriously. That's in me though for wanting what I shouldn't have wanted. I got home again.. about 6 this time and looked forward to bed. I crashed hard and actually slept.. the only night all damn fucking week. 

Day 54...

Rose was back and man I was so happy to see her! I'd started things and really needed to situate caterings for the next day and get my production papers done. I'd considered coming in at 5 for the alo e time then realized how it's inventory so screw making my day even longer. I'd go a to ask Mike how to handle it given I've never had to during the day yet and he said definitely but you need to make sure all your productivity is done and caught up. And he brought it up and said oh. I told him I never have an hour and a half to just sit and do these because I'm not at the desk at this point and he made sure to tell me this is not a criticism on you but go start them and let me think. So now I've been banished to the office, Julie's desk to get caught up and stay as such because the 29th is inventory and it's set in stone. I got all the numbers done and left was computer input. 6 days worth basically. I left optimistic but tired and opted to go to dinner with Lindsey and Candy as usual on Thursdays. We went to 5 Star Dive Bar in Elkhart. I had..

A necessary Long Island...

A tasty burger and fries and some delicious fried mushrooms!

Followed by a double scoop of Black Cherry and Mousse Tracks in a waffle cone. It was delicious. 

Then my dumb ass people pleased T and ugh whatever. I will deal with that.. I am working on it. I got home and crashed. I was in at 5am again tomorrow due to caterings and such. 

Day 55..

My catering due at 7:15 but one of the driver was going to need to leave by then as well. So I got to work, preheated the ovens, added a couple sheet pans so I could speed up proofing for my cinnamon rolls. I got his food in, for the cinnamon rolls in and set off to prep the next step. I also needed to bake scones and collect the rest of my items and tray things up. I'd talked to everyone but needed to clarify with Doreen next time because one of the drivers told her differently. So I have everything set by 10 til 7 and all that's finishing up is Noah's. The driver then gave two other jank responses and honestly I was pissed. I was not is a good mood, I had so much to do. I finished that crap, had my words as necessary. I got to the office and tried to accomplish things but in the end only two got finished. At this point I'm exhausted and pissy. I need to leave, go home shower and take shit to the house. I took all my plants and stuff to the house.

and out them where I could for light. Sadly my flowers are now dying, they were not happy apparently with the move. 

 I was set to pick up the truck at 5, Tyrell was going to help. Well he got done early and drank and went to sleep. It took so much to get a hold of him I'm shitty and he finally comes out. I'm late to the truck and half way to it apparently his GF, who I don't like and never had, decides she's coming to help. I was like just go home. I can do this on my own. Seriously. I'm high and stupid pissed about it. I wanted a chill time with T and instead I have him drunk and her dumb ass. I just start doing my shit. She's already whining about her back and I straight said I do this daily and just went to work. I really didn't care. Then they are like well help at the house and I'm like you want to work fuck it. Let me show you how much I do not need you. So then I just went. I just wanted it done. 

I dropped them off still pissed cause he was fucking dumb and  grabbed food and went home. Seriously man... I was so annoyed. 

Day 56...

Moving day. I got up about 7:20. I'd actually slept some and woke up at 5ish to pee. I glanced outside afraid it was raining.. instead it was white. It fucking snowed man. I was so mad and I tried to go back to sleep and could not. I was already grumpy, T was bitching about trying to get a bottle and I'm like... I do not have fucking time. I've shit to do. So I have coffee and roll. Alicia and I chat, smoke and at like 9 I go up stairs. Man I had way more to pack still than I thought. I crazy rushed to make sure I got everything and started taking stuff to the truck. About my 4th trip down the stairs Frank gets home. He and I try to open the truck and it's frozen. After some work I got the bitch open and it was on. We set upstairs and they yell for Jayden. He thinks he's gonna move shit in slippers and a robe. I looked at him and said.. you might not want the robe and Alicia was like.. uhm you need shoes. So he's stupid shitty and after one run he's bitching and I looked at him and said.. Jayden I was at work at 4:45am yesterday and emptied my damn storage and I've already made several laps down those stairs. You're 17.. you should be moving much better than I am. And walked away. I just wanted shit done. Frank grabs the dolly and man shit just moved! I felt bad cause everyone was moving so hard but honestly good. I know they were glad I was gone and I'm glad to be gone. I love my friend but I kinda regret moving in there. 

We had the truck filled in about 2 hrs. I couldn't believe it. I finished a few things and they ate lunch. Jayden went to work and his GF came with us. We went to the house and set out. Tori and I out my bed frame together and they emptied the truck. It only took like an hour and I couldn't believe it. Alicia took me to return the truck and we went back to the house. She cleaned my bathroom and I found my bedding and made my bed. Then she left. I continued some things and then took a shower and dealt with T. I decided I was going to dinner with Lindsey and Candy cause I didn't want fast food. 

I did want a long island though. 

I had showed them the house and Lindsey was kinda ugh. Pointing out everything wrong and I'm just like.. wow. Can't you see I'm excited? This is literally huge for me and it really hurt that she was so judgemental about it. Dinner was good and they got me home. 

I tucked I with a smoke and candy and watched The Burbs. I stayed up til like 10:30 and went to sleep. I did try no white noise app but trains can be heard. I kinda slept but kinda did not. I was sore and so tired. 

Day 57...

I tried to sleep, I wanted to sleep. I was so tired. I dragged myself up at 9ish. And opted to do laundry as planned. I tried to not take my blankets but I did. I don't rdered my coffee and set off. No line when I stopped at the red lights and watched cars pull in. I was so angry man. So angry. Then everything just started pissing me off. I was so fucking grumpy. That's where I started today's post and I'm finally catching up. I used two 40 lb washers. I put it all in 3 dryers. The last one I added money to 3x and realized I was putting money in someone's already drying dryer. I was ready to be mad and said whelp whoever's that is gets extra time and shrugged. The lady realized and offered to pay for mine but I laughed and said I shoulda paid attention it's truly ok. We laughed and it was whatever. I started to readjust and I was so glad. I got my clothes into the car and ran to Alicia's. They were loading to go to the Laundromat lol. I got the microwave, my skillet, coffee cup and travel cup. As I left I thought about where to get eggs. I wanted to make an omelette. I ended up at Kroger, I went to the Dollar store for a trash can or 4 but I felt they were expensive honestly. As I leave I see OG, the Chinese joint we've ordered from and thought I'd do that after groceries. I clipped some coupons and before I knew it I was shopping. I spent $120 and have some fruit and meal ideas for all week. Hopefully I can be home at a decent time cause I want to cook meals. I'm planning to cook single meals and I'm kinda excited about that. 

I got home and unloaded the car. I needed to live things for the cable dude to do my Internet. I got my stuff out a way and moved boxes and put some things away. An hour later I was eating some of my Chinese. I put it away and started.y laundry. 

It's 7:34pm, I'm showered and eating the rest of my Chinese. I have Internet thanks to the guy who had to completely reline my home. 

i absolutely felt bad. He was here about an hour and a half. With my day ending, all my laundry is out away, I went through several boxes and hung and put away my clothes. I've a good chunk taken care of. I moved my bookshelf to in front of the window and moved all my plants. I have a bag for goodwill and a bag and a half of trash. It's ultimately been a hell of a productive day. I can officially just chill until bedtime. I also got my bedtime candle, Bed, I Love You, it was on sale and only two left so I bought them. It always helps me sleep amazingly. I'm going to be lighting it shortly. 

I am so glad that I am fully moved. I just need to keep handling things and it will be together in no time!

~ T ~