Ch.2 Pg.39 of 366

If anyone had told me last Sept I'd be where I am now I would have argued and really never believed it. Seriously. I am about to live I to my own little house that I am renting no more than maybe 2 blocks from an amazing job I never would have imagined having. I actually feel like a real adult and not like I'm playing house. ME. On my OWN! Needing no one but myself and that is how I'ma about to enjoy myself. No joke. 
I am so fucking proud of myself for. It giving up, for deciding to fight. For telling my Dr Nov. 2018 that I'm not ok and that I need help. That I chose that over what I've always thought, well at least since I was 13?14? Since I was old enough to understand existence. I fucking fought. 
I said fuck men.. really ultimately fuck men. I will fuck with T but no expectations, no strings, no bullshit I'm not willing to put up with. I will continue my boundaries and saying no. But I'll enjoy too and go the fuck home to my peace. I'm about to build my peace and that is what I want. To focus on my overall health and build my best life. 
I had two drinks tonight and I only took pics with my second. This one very much showed I didn't need this second one lol
And yet so did this one so I didn't share either. I feel wonderful and I don't care. I will not drink like this all the time, I will stay aware because I will not bea drunk, but I will also enjoy. I am gonna fuckin enjoy life. That said damn these late nights! It's 9:30 and I won't sleep past 5:15 and I'll be out of bed by 5:20.. regardless of setting my alarm for 5:40 and trying to be late hahaha.. but whatever. 
I feel like I accomplished serious shit at work and Chi said she really likes me and hopes I stay forever. And I'm just really grateful. Grateful that I trusted myself, grateful that I decided I was worth so much more and am showing myself that I know my worth. 
It's time to love me, get to know me and accept me for all I am, as I discover me. 
Damn it this was supposed to be a funny blog if What The Fuck T weird ass shit and instead I am just really fucking proyof myself! So haha yay me!!! 

~ T ~ 

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