Ch. 4 (April WK 2) Pg. 99-105

Fuck this week man. I had it all done and came back to add two pictures and the fucking thing wiped!! Fully fucking wiped and I'm still pissed off about it so I'm just going to save u til I want to deal with it. 

I just want the pictures gone and I have to remember where the fuck I was. I'm seriously pissed that the entire thing is gone.. like seriously pissed off. 

So Pg. 99.. April 8th.. I'm includythe actual date because today was an E-learning day and the reason is we were having a Solar Eclipse and we were in the path with like a 98% darkness. The school gave us all glasses too. 

This particular day was supposed to go so much better but Spring Break didn't go as planned so I was stupid behind which made me cook who was able to come in behind as well. My boss got shitty and I was shitty back. I was tired of always being behind and no one acknowledging that there's constantly too much to be done. This position is not for one damn person. My leg hurt, I didn't let it slow me down but that's besides the point imo. So there was no staying late and everything needed to be done. Needless to say it was a shitty day at work.. just like the week before it. 

My bruises were steadily coming out. I did catch a picture of what I fell over and that space in front of it is where I landed. 

I am still surprised that I did not severely hurt myself. I truly could have. So many things I could have hit. I really think that because it was dark and I couldn't react I didn't cause the damage I could have and for that I am grateful. 

Work ended and I went home and showered. The day was already looking weird out. 

I showered and sat on my little porch.. 

All the stress and worry just went away. Work had steadily been wearing me down. But it felt good to sit out here. It was eerily quiet. Very few cars were on the road. My bruises just hanging out, my chin was surprisingly never that big or dark. My leg though.. different story. 

i sat outside for probably an hour and a half just digging the sky and quiet.

and the sun.. it's Intense Brightness was a trip! 

i even tried to take a picture with the glasses..

i definitely expected the darkness to be actually dark. 

but it didn't get so much dark as deeply shadowed? This next picture is the darkest it ever got, shadowed is the word I feel for it. 

It really was real cool and I'm glad I was home to sit in that energy. I would like to say it recharged me but it didn't. I really wish I could have had sex during it, that would have been great energy. But anyway.. .. the Eclipse was cool.

Pg. 100-105, I'm clearing up the week .. it wasn't especially exciting.. I don't think. Pg. 100 had me at dinner with Lindsey and Candy. As usually work was a nightmare and I'm already behind so when they suggested Ho Ping I was down.

Unexpected cute outfit..

and my bruises continued to appear. My shoulder..

my right thumb/palm decided to be swollen and colored.

My elbow was bruised but I couldn't get a good picture. Things were sore but I was not broken at all. 

It really tripped me out watching the bruises appear. 

I got to the restaurant and ordered my Long Island, I needed it. And I vented about the shit at work. 

oh I needed that drink and I would definitely like one right now. I am trying to not drink and smoke though so I leave the bottles sealed. 

My leg has been bothering me, the back side of it. I also want to note that I did email my Dr and let her know I fell and sent pictures of the bruising. She asked about wrapping it and I said there is no way I want to contemplate that pain. 

So come Wednesday, I couldn't get it to not hurt. That whole vein .. and it worried me because I did fall and I needed to be aware of blood clots. She I let my Dr know and I had an appointment set for Friday. 

Work continued to be a nightmare, in every way. I get to Friday, I get to the Dr and next thing I know I'm wrapped. 

It was a pain in the ass and Tyrell still asked to drop off. So frustrating man. So I have instructions from my Dr... I am to stay off my leg and it is to stay elevated. So that's what I did. I brought work home, as usual and stayed off my leg. 

I couldn't sleep with my leg wrapped but I was very surprised how much my swelling decreased, I didn't realize it was basically a compression sock and now I know better. 

I did still make myself breakfast, Saturday was yummy oatmeal. 

i am on a huge oatmeal kick lately and I don't care if it's summer time, I love it. Other than that I stayed OFF my leg. 

Sunday I was still determined to do my cooking and have me time in my kitchen. It's my favorite day and time.. I genuinely enjoy smoking and cooking in my kitchen. I make coffee and this particular day... I had Zero Fucks...

I'd been trying to decide what to even make, I feel like I should always have something different if not fancy lol. I'd definitely stopped a good amount of cooking, work just kept me so tired. I did at least stop buying and eating candy. That was removed from my diet. I had remembered seeing a real about PB&J stuffed French toast so.. that's what I did. 

As usual I over do the fillings making it difficult to seal correctly haha. I did Peanut Butter and Sour Cherry Jam. 

they definitely look a wee bit wonky and I kinda want to find a cutter to use next time lol. Ultimately they came out fantastic. 

I always need more than French Toast or Pancakes.. that's why I never order them out haha. 

I really appreciate that I see myself as beautiful for once, because I do. I'd meant to share this picture when I did this post the first time and the entire thing was wiped in the process. Sometimes I'll take a selfie and realize... I truly am beautiful. 

I then spent the day with my leg wrapped and up as I was supposed to. 

I forgot to mention in my first post that Marci asked me to join them in an April Drawing Challenge since it was Oceanic themed and I agreed. 

This is where I am at this point.. I didn't want to only share the end so I'm sharing some of it in between. 

my Seahorse came out amazing.. he was probably my top favorite item. Though my whale and Jelly fish were wonderful here too. I definitely enjoyed doing it but I am a perfectionist. You can tell from my pearl Oyster and starfish that I did not have an eraser. As things progressed.. I found my eraser. This challenge took easily an hour to 2 hrs every night. I was so tired all the time and all the energy I had went to staying up in this challenge lol. Some items definitely did not come together as I wanted but ultimately I enjoyed the entire month. 

I am calling this damn week done and over with. 

~ T ~