Ch. 6 (June) Pg. 156-158

Tuesday, Pg. 156, I felt like I was STILL recouping from the weekend, but I did have a weird burst of I got this and set out for applications. I was feeling off because I was choosing what to apply for. I don't want to do certain things, I will do my best not to. I have seriously applied for some things too. Multiples in many companies just trying to get anyone to call me. 
I got ready for the interview I had set and was looking super cute. 
I really appreciate that I finally actually feel like a woman. I've never felt like a woman, just an awkward 15 yr old in an old body. I still have to actively refer to myself as a women and not a girl or chick. So I got to my appointment and was trying to check in and kept having issues. I was calling the lady back and nothing. Finally I looked at the email (I didn't pay attention to it because no date was given, we just said Tues.) and it said Tues. 11th. I felt soooo dumb. 
I had realized early in the day my mushrooms were needing used so I took out a package of meat. I actually felt like cooking but didn't know what I wanted so I basically made two things. I took maybe 1/4 of the hamburger and shrooms and made the base for stroganoff and the rest of it I added the rest of the mushrooms to it and made pasta. I added chopped onions and seasoned up the meat really well. I added a jar of sauce and then adjusted that seasoning. I decided to grate up Mozz and stirred half in and then let the other half melt in top. 
it was sooo good!! I still have some and have yet to make stroganoff. It might end up in the freezer lol. Tuesday was a good day!
Wednesday, Pg. 157, was not a good day. I was struggling the moment I got up. Tyrell was on a nerve and just everything. I worked on applications and also had therapy. I had not seen my therapist for four weeks, I did send her my blog post so she was aware and prepared though. It was a rough session. Fr rough. I cried the whole time, very ugly cried. I did acknowledge the fact that I did in fact hike a boundary and I am damn proud of that, but it was still a really hard session. I'm struggling with having so many applications out there and no I e calling me or contacting me. That is absolutely weighing on me at the moment but I am trusting in The Universe.. I know I made the right decision. 
After therapy I met Lindsey and Candy for dinner and then went to trivia. I had told Pam I would bring the cake I made. So we actually won and that was cool. It was still a super long amount of peopling and I was very ready to go home. 
Thursday, Pg. 158, today... I am trying to keep these caught up lol. 
Man... This is for real. Every day I feel like I got through several. The stupid high to stupid low is almost infuriating. I woke up and didn't want to deal with Tyrell. So when he asked I said no. He kind of pushed and I just told him its not a good time. I made coffee and heated up a piece of my cake. I started off weird. Heavy and not wanting to application but wanting to work on my journal and do the two things my therapist suggested. So I had my laptop and I ended up making a long and very personal post on FB. I then went to clear my emails and ended up doing applications. I did 3 for goodwill and others. I then went ahead and dropped for Tyrell and came home. I did more applications and made dinner and did dishes. Then I came back in and actually made an appointment for my eyes for tomorrow and left a message for a dentist. I have hip and I need to use it. My eyes have absolutely been bothering me. 
In the end today was rather productive, I'm happy with how it went.

~ T ~

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